Saturday, January 23, 2010

An Update

Well, it's been a busy couple of weeks, and it's time to post an update. I did wind up wearing the red dress to the party. We had a very nice night. We had a hotel room in Philly that was on the 20th floor and had a great view that overlooked the water. The boat that the party was on was within walking distance of the hotel, in fact we could see it from the window. We got to the hotel around 3 and were able to relax and get ready for the party. We took a cab to the party so that my hair would not get messed up, he-he,  and because i had on very pretty new shoes that looked better than they felt. It cost like 5 dollars with tip to go down one block, lol. We got on the boat and met up with some of Steve's co-workers and bosses. It was a very nice setting and food and drinks were good. I did get Steve on the dance floor a couple times, but only for slow dances and "the twist". The water was calm, so we barely felt the boat move, thank God, because i was afraid of getting sea-sick. We had a nice night and walked back to the hotel when the party was over.

I started my 6th semester in college two weeks ago. I decided to take 3 classes this semester so i can finish up and start working sooner. I'm not sure if that was such a good idea, because one of the classes, Social Policy and Programming, is extremely demanding!! We have an 8-10 page research paper due in less than 3 weeks and at the same time need to work in a group to come up with a Needs Assessment and Proposal for an unmet need in Kent County. This involves much work and getting my group together to work on it is already proving to be a daunting task because of our scheduling conflicts and mostly because of my lack of transportation. In fact, my lack of having my own car is really making things very difficult for me. I am resigning my position as president for TUA, partly because I just can't get the car enough to be consistently running meetings or be dependable. The other reason is because i find that nobody else is doing any work, and i am not so good at delegating responsibilities. Anyway, with 3 demanding classes and schooling Rachel and duties of taking care of house and kids, my plate is pretty full. And, as of now, i have not even picked the topic for my big research paper and my group has barely nailed down the need that we will assess, nor what we will propose to do about it. So, i have a lot of work to do and not a whole lot of time, which seems to be the theme for me when i am in school. I really need a car, so if you are one who prays, pray that God will provide. We have a lot of things coming up that require some financial juggling as it is, so it will take some creative juggling to meet those needs and get a car. But, i really miss my independence. I'm sure I'll get one when the time is right. I'm just impatient. They say that "all good things come to those who wait". Now, i'm not sure who "they" are, but i have found that, sooner or later, things work out if i just wait, so that's what i'm gonna do. Until then, I am thankful for:

1. The 1/2 of car that i do own :)
2. That Steve has a semi-decent car that gets him to work and back
3. The opportunity i have to stay home with/for my kids while they need me.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Which Dress is Best?

So, a while ago i told my sister that i got a couple of dresses for Steve's company holiday party and i couldn't decide which one to wear. So here they are with and without their jackets. Let me know which one you like better, please, because i like them both and i'm still not sure which one to wear. I am leaning towards the red one, but it is a bit low cut. I'll probably keep the jackets on, but if it gets hot and i feel relaxed enough, i may go sleeveless. Thanks for helping me and being kind :-)


Sunday, January 3, 2010

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year!!!!
A whole new year and a whole new decade!!
Last year was a great year for me, as was 2008 and part of 2007. But the rest of the past decade was not good at all. At. All. But, i have a very, very strong feeling that this decade is going to be the best decade for me. For the first 6 years of 2000, i was very, very depressed. It became a lifestyle for me, and i thought that would just be the way my life would be for the rest of my life. After going through a particularly horrible experience, i realized that most of the problems in my life were actually caused by the way that I reacted to certain situations. And so i made a conscious effort to change the way in which i reacted to those difficult situations. I decided that no one has to live my life but me, and that i was the only one who was standing in my way of becoming the person whom i wanted to be. It took a looooong time, but I faked it for about 4 or 5 months, and than slowly, reacting appropriately to unpleasant situations became the norm. It is not always easy, but now it always works out better than it used to. And that is not because the unpleasant situations have in any way changed. But i have. And the way that i react to them has. For me, it wasn't about needing medicine to make it all better. It was about focusing on being the person i wanted to be, no matter what else was going on around me. And that's what i have done. So...
This decade is gonna be the best one yet. I have heard that the 40's are way better than the 20's and 30's and i'm ready for it :) I will be graduating college in about 2 years and hopefully i will be getting a job in my field. However, i am prepared for the possibility that i may not be able to get a job in my field while living in the State of DE, and i'm mostly fine working at the local drugstore or something for a while until the time is right. Hopefully, sometime soon, withing the first half of this decade, we will be moving to Florida. That would be sweet. But, i also need to prepare myself for the possibility that God may not have that planned for us. I hope He does, but i have lived my life using my own desires and discretion long enough. It is time for me to find out what God desires for my life. That way, i know it will be the best life possible. Because He planned it all out for me before i was born, and i know that He knows best. It's all a matter of trust. That is something that i struggle with, but i'm learning.
I can't wait to see what He has in store.

Today i am thankful:
1. That God waits for us and gives us second and third (etc) chances
2. That we get to start over every day if we need to. That it's never too late to start over to be the person we were meant to be.
3. That we don't have to be perfect.
I hope everyone has a blessed new year.